Dating Troubles

I'm not sure if there are rules about how many posts you can post in one day, but I really need to get this out.

As some of you may know, I am recently a newbie to the single life. So far, I love my freedom, and the friends who have come out of hiding to prove that they will always be here for me. I love that.

In particular, my future roomie, Alicia, has a HUGE group of guy friends. She just isn't into the drama girls tend to cling to. I respect that. However, girls are easier to go out with when you're on the prowl. I mean, how many guys are going to approach you at a bar when your table includes 2 chicks and 4 dudes?

Her guy friends are cool, but guys I want as JUST FRIENDS. I was really looking forward to being able to relax with new friends, and no weirdness. Unfortunately, 2 weeks into this single life, and it's already weird -with all of them :/

There's Zack, who graduated from my high school a year ahead of me. He's clean cut, super sweet, and has a great paying job. BUT, i'm just not into it.

Then there's Sam, who graduated from a high school nearby, and either graduated the same year I did, or the year before. He's cute, funny (really really funny), and super smart. BUT the dude kisses his chocolate chip pancakes. I know he was trying to be funny, but it was a little uncomfortable. I can't look at him anymore without picturing it. It also turns out that he's been married before. Pass. It may be shallow of me, but I want my marriage experience to be with someone who is doing it for the first time too.

Finally there's Shaun. He graduated a year after me, which says enough. I need to date older guys, at least a year or 2. My mom says it has something to do with their maturity level. I guess she's forgotten I'm pretty immature myself. Whatever. Anyway. Shaun is funny, athletic, has a nice truck (shallow, I know), and also super nice.

One night out with all of these guys, and I felt like they were fighting over me. At this point, I had only been single a week. Very strange. Zack pulled out my chair for me, Shaun gave me his jacket when I was cold..as did Zack later on in the evening. A guy named..crap.

I forgot his name. Hold on..I have to go through my contacts.

Alex. A guy named Alex followed me around and hit on me ALL night. But he graduated 2 years after me with my sister. Enough said. As the evening ended, Sam carried me over his shoulder to his truck. He opened the door for me, let me choose the radio station, wouldn't let me out of the truck until he could open my door..I mean, the whole nine yards.

But still, I'm uninterested in all of them. I just need good friends right now. Besides, instead of talking to me like grown men, they try to put my girlfriend in the middle. They want her to talk to me for them. Is this what dating is really like? Immature boys trying to date mature women? No thanks. What if I'm too honest? No one will want to come over to our apartment! No one will see all the glitter!!

I believe there is one guy out there for me. God has a plan. I just have to be patient and wait for his plan to happen. Problem is...I have very little patience.

How long should I wait before I start dating again? I feel like it's always going to be weird. In my 23 years, i've only dated 1 guy. I was with my previous boyfriend, Jd, for a little over 6 years. This is going to take time.

So, here's to finding love. When we're ready to fall again.

<3 Heather xo